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I am trying to find a post I made more than six months ago where I talked about getting caught up in the setting and backstory, the history, of a map.

What a slow start :]

Thought review

So I write down a lot of my thoughts in my phone etc. Today I hope to go through a huge thought backlog and observe and note some of the important things.

Just thought I would pop in and say "hi"

You know. This is the kinda thing where I do that, every once in a while. I have been reading a lot of personality-type related stuff, trying to figure out how myself and others think, use their intuitions, and use their feelings. Also: work.

Incoming

I am gone for the next several days. I plan on writing some, so . . . updates incoming!

The Readers

Alright so I currently believe that nobody reads this site.  Well, I know of one person who does.  Most othere probably come by via some google search on Marathon, and move on again.  This is fine for now.  I think, this really is not about the readers.  If it is important, then I believe the readers will come eventually.  But I am not so sure it is important, other things are . . .

I released my first Far Cry 2 map yesterday, wgc_requiem.  My friend likes it.  I do well on it.  Overall, I am pleased.  It is of course named after a Marathon2 map, Requiem For a Cyborg.  I picked out 'Requiem' for other reasons, but that level in the game comes at a pivotal point in the game where the player (a cyborg) becomes less important.  More on that later I guess.  I am also making plans to visit an acquaintence-who-I-consider-friend.  That should be very good.  I want the mastodon whale as a tattoo as well.  

On dreams:  I had a variation on a recurring dream last night.  It was very interesting.  Normally this dream ends as I am physically battered by the forces of nature.  It is an upsetting, desperate dream.  In last night's dream, I did struggle but I escaped for the first time.  Not only did I survive but I  (along with the others present!)  was enjoying myself.  People were even fishing!  Very strange for a recurring death dream.  I am excited to sleep, and dream tonight.  

And from the Marathon manual, page 4: "Oddly , this is familiar to you, as if it were from an old dream, but you can't exactly remember..."

"Your father told you as a child to always fight with honor, but to always fight."

Food (!)

So I am off to McDonalds.  I am going to sit there as I eat, and think about mapping.  I have been playing Far Cry 2 the past couple days, and the game is fun but feels like absolute crap.  The point is, there is a solid custom map setup going on, and I want to get in on that.  I do not know why I am going to McDonalds to contemplate.  But I am.  And I will.